I almost forgot I had this.
So, even though I've had this bloggerzzz for almost 3 years now, I'm just going to start fresh and try to keep it current. That said, here's the new stuff......
I found a post about Axes High which made me laugh. Axes High is now Bulletwolf, and Bulletwolf is now killer. I feel very fortunate to be able to share the stage with such a group of talented dudes, as well as just being able to call them friends. Easily the best band I've ever been in. Our first full length came out and it's something I'm very proud of.
I miss my dad. I don't talk to him near as much as I used to. We didn't have a falling out or anything, it's just weird. We go forever without talking, and then out of nowhere one of us calls the other and it's like we haven't missed a beat. Last I saw him, I think Kate and I went and saw his band play, which is when he informed me of his decision to possibly move to Houston after Thanksgiving. With that being next week, I feel like I've missed out on a lot of opportunities to call/hang out. I am happy for him though. If Houston pans out the way he told me, he's going to have an awesome job building guitars with his friend at his business.
I feel like I'm pretty close to losing my grandma. A month ago she was in a car wreck. The hospital she went to after her wreck sent her home after a few hours. However, 24 hours later she's laid up in another hospital with a broken wrist, broken hand, lacerated spleen, pnuemonia (sp?), and a stomach infection. How do you miss all that? Whatever. She ends up becoming non-responsive to her nurses and doctors. She is put on a respirator to help her breathing. However, you can't be on respirators forever because the tube can cause damage to your vocal chords. So, she had a tracheotomy. Nice. Doctors inform us that she has little to no brain activity and is completely non-responsive. We contact close family and discuss our options as far as how we want her to live, as well as what she would want for herself. This obviously ends with us agreeing that none of us, her included, want her on a machine. "She wouldn't want it, and we all know it" is what we all said. It's true. She wouldn't.
We move her to another hospital. One that deals with patients who are in bad shape, and possibly "on their way out". This hospital gives us the same story: Her brain is completely inactive, she is non-responsive, eyes glazed over, she will need a respirator for the rest of her life, and the way she is now is how she will be until the end. Kate and I drove out to see her on Tuesday, and oddly enough, this is the first time 1. she's met my family (minus my dad), and 2. I've given my grandma a kiss goodbye. My grandfather signed the paperwork on Wednesday stating that we the family would like to cease the use of the respirator. We get the call that Sunday at 4 p.m. is when my grandmother will be given a HEAVY sedative and taken off of her respirator, and nature would take it's course and my grandma.
Through all of this, my grandpa has been a wreck. I've never seen him like this, ever. I've never seen any signs of affection from him towards my grandmother. Since the accident, he's given her 3 kisses that I've seen, and who knows how many I haven't. I've never seen my grandpa cry before this. I thought he was incapable. I was wrong. This has all been tough on him, and I think that's why he called the hospital on Thursday to tell them to go ahead with the sedation and taking her off of the respirator. However, this didn't happen. My grandpa was informed that my grandma said "Good morning" to her nurse and squeezed her hand. Huh?
That's the last I've heard. It's really a tough time for me because my granmother has always been there for me and my family in general. She's our rock. Any problem you had, you called grandma. Come hell or high water she was going to help you any way she could. I hope my family has learned from this trying time, but if I know them like I think I do, it's done no good in helping us grow as a family. We'll see where we end up this time next week.
That being said, I have a wonderful girlfriend, amazing friends, a good job, and a sense that everything is going well for the first time in a long time.
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